I wonder how many people live as if there will be tomorrow and how many live as if there may not.
I think this can directly affect how people communicate.
Because of life experiences, I cannot ignore the fact that I have no idea how long I will live. Not to be dramatic but if I did not consider it, I would be ignorant. With that view, I seem to be honed in to many missed opportunities. Mainly missed opportunities of spending time with loved ones. Unfortunately, I tend to be critical towards others or myself, or I take it personally and jump to conclusions. Its strange because there has to be a balance between spontaneity and planning, between going with the flow and making a goal, between creating, giving and receiving energy- life energy that comes from excitement about what one is doing and the desire to share it. Balance between patience and not waiting for something to happen. I am a feeling based person so I am very affected emotionally when the balance seems off.
It turns out that I am also a hypocrite because I sacrifice time with loved ones to dance. So I am missing many opportunities of hanging out. However, I am spending time with other dancers who understand my passion and lift me up. And dance gives me the feeling that I could die happy, that I am doing what I am supposed to be doing, which is basically helping to raise the spirit of humanity- on a small level of course.
I am studying the part of the nurse in Romeo and Juliet. Can I connect with her? Am I mature enough to know what true love is when I see it? Do I know the beauty of youth with the wisdom of my sight? Do I care for that young woman, not as my own daughter but as a caretaker, companion and friend? Providing support and boasting with love for only her, I feel jolly, round and bigger than myself. I am aware of each character and how they relate to Juliet. I experience different emotions when relating to each member of her family. I am really not strong emotionally, but I pretend so that everyone may feel comforted by my empathy.
Well, that was a dive into my interpretation of what a nurse might be. Watching old movies present nurses to put up with many difficult personalities, yet they never budge and have great attachment with the one who is their responsibility. So why are they always quirky?!! and goofy. What do they think of their own personal life and experiences? What have they been through and what are they sacrificing?
Anyone have feedback for me? I think it may be a fun conversation.
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