Amanda McGovern

We are actually all going to die someday.

Suddenly the thought refreshes my life with a new breath.

What if love is permanent- as if my love for my Grandmother was passed down to me from her Great Aunt Anna who died the day I was born.. And some of the love Mother had for Brother stuck to me before she died, like a flower seed left on the ground slowly blossoming again..?

And you wonder why I dance. Its too much to feel just revealed as its gone powerful moments shared in the midst of others never talked about because its beyond words.

A single death opens us to knowledge.

What if we are not meant to be happy- that happiness is only supposed to be fleeting moments that one can never catch- That way they are always enjoyed like that day of perfect weather in San Francisco?

Maybe your love is scattered like ashes thrown to the ocean

eaten by the fish passed on through soil to vegetables

back to life with passion

Give and you will see who gives you the support for what is important

Family

“Through our senses the world appears. Through our reactions we create delusions. Without reactions the world becomes clear.”

let your heat turn my water to steam

‘and u make me feel like a sweepstake winner’

suspend me into smoke just for awhile

‘oh darlin darlin’

subdue me into a ‘misty morning’

I’ll fold my laundry thinking of you

i found the state of simply mind that is romance

‘they say that love is a stream that will find its course.’

your home must be a retreat because ‘you can’t run away from yourself’

vibration is positive  pickin’ up, are you pickin’ up now?

Take a Picture of your Future and file it away

Find an old picture from your past and Burn it with incense flame

Then take a look and figure how to reflect your soul

What if Virtue was more important than Pride?

Courage weighed over self-confidence, Honesty oversaw personal mistakes?

being and sharing your self was bigger than gossip that could follow.

that Love outlasted criticism….

What if there was a larger reason to do anything at all                      ?

Today!

Joy!

Recovery!

Total Relaxation!

Rejuvenation!
Drained of dead fears tired of what wasn’t taken away time after time i cannot lose what is mine but it’s mine

My Life is not someone else’s

Individual expression! Yah!

Romancing my sea of Dreams, haunted by a Visual memory that keeps me searching.

A place I long to reach, where I am happy.

a moment finally destined, reached inside first

a permanent state of romance

2 separate moments come together

me with a cat and me with a kiss

parallel worlds colliding into non-existence

Ahh

Then I went off to fight some battle
That I’d invented inside my head
Away so long for years and years
You probably thought or even wished that I was dead
While the armies are all sleeping
Beneath the tattered flag we’d made
I had to stop in my tracks for fear
Of walking on the mines I’d laid

And if I built this fortress around your heart
Encircled you in trenches and barbed wire
Then let me build a bridge
For I cannot fill the chasm
And let me set the battlements on fire

This prison has now become your home
A sentence you seem prepared to pay
It took a day to build the city
We walked through its streets in the afternoon
As I returned across the lands I’d known
I recognized the fields where I’d once played
I had to stop in my tracks for fear
Of walking on the mines I’d laid

And if I built this fortress around your heart
Encircled you in trenches and barbed wire
Then let me build a bridge
For I cannot fill the chasm
And let me set the battlements on fire

one morn
a bell rang
in my heart upon waking
a simple ding

and then the
world hung
upside down
effortlessly

i saw something
in the glass
coffee table
a reflection
a frowning tree

i close my eyes
and know i must
follow the bell
through warped
worlds no more.